Its So Hard...To Say Good-bye...To Yesterday...

Boyz II Men had it right. It IS hard to say good-bye to yesterday. I'm currently preparing to transition jobs at work. As part of this job change, its necessary to officially end relationships with the various groups I've been working so closely with for the past three years. In drafting multiple 'break up' emails to my clients, my account management team, emails to hand off my current projects to others on my team... I realized something about myself. I hate breaking up.

It doesn't matter if I'm ending a love relationship, or ending a work relationship. I despise it. It occurred to me today that I've put this off for the past THREE WEEKS! A few heartfelt words expressing gratitude for the quality of our relationship and my sincere best wishes for their future success, should be easy enough to draft and send, right? Wrong! I'm finding this to be one of the most arduous tasks I've undertaken in quite some time.

This has made me realize that I've allowed far too many love relationships to continue well past their expiration date. Do I subconsciously feel that I don't deserve to be happy? Why is it so difficult to end something that is causing me grief, and thus allow myself to be free to move on to something truly fulfilling?

Its a conundrum I cannot solve. But it is disappointing to realize this about oneself. That you despise breaking up so much, that you'll cling to something even if it causes you unhappiness.

Its times like this that its important to draw strength and inspiration from others who have gone before you:

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do.

So throw off the bowlines.

Sail away from the safe harbor.

Catch the trade winds in your sails.

Explore.

Dream.

Discover.

– Mark Twain